August 6th, 2018 was just 200 days ago but it feel’s like a life time has passed. It’s been a long while since I’ve actually typed something on this blog. YouTube videos are going so well it hasn’t really been a priority but I owe it to myself to at least try to document my feelings at some point.
What better point than now? Day 200 of the adventure of a lifetime!
I (Tim) left my home and everything I knew. Refit and outfitted a small plastic sailboat to sail around the world. Here I am, some 2000 nautical miles from home, still trucking. Almost sunk, been through heaven and hell. Experienced more in 200 days than a whole lifetime in many cases.
What I miss the most is obviously the kids. Despite ready to order McCafe coffee which is a distant second, the kids not being here kills me. I see the other kids who got to go on this adventure with their parent(s). They speak multiple languages by the time they’re six years old, they swing from trees and play with Eagle Rays. They swim in the ocean in gin clear blue waters. They befriend anyone and everyone and live a life like a fairytale. No iPads, no Wifi. Just pure living. Their souls are so very pure and their happiness shines brighter than I’d ever of imagined.
I wish my kids could be here but there is still hope for my Cali. She’s so young and has yet to become jaded by capitalism. She plans to come spend the summer with me in Grenada. My son is at an age where it may not happen but I trust that he knows I love him despite our differences. I pray he will come around and come see the world with me. Nothing would mean more than sharing that amazing thing with him. Showing him what the real world has to offer.
I have lived the life people expected me to. Work very hard, meet the right girl, buy a house, and have kids. Buy lots of toys to play with and work even harder to pay for it all. Materialistically, I have had everything I have ever wanted, and nothing that I actually needed. Big televisions, fast cars, sailboats, and motorcycles. Computers and video games. It’s what I wanted. What I really needed was travel and freedom. To leave a legacy for my children other than everything I owned. To show them and everyone else I know that you don’t have to be a slave to money. What I truly needed was to show everyone bliss. A bliss you can only have if you abandon everything you thought to be true and set off in chase of passion. Dreams.
Sailing for 200 days now has taught me so very much but it’s nothing you can read in a book. Nothing I could explain in a tiny blog post. Nothing you will get on a cruise ship or a week long trip to some “paradise” as advertised. Sailing for 200 days has taught me that somethings just can’t be explained in words or videos. They just can’t be felt through electronic means. You simply have to do it.
I urge you – whatever it is that keeps you up at night, whatever it is that makes you unhappy or stressed, examine it. Feel it out and give yourself an honest go. Your dreams are there. Maybe hard to admit to, maybe difficult to the point where you don’t even try, maybe seemingly unreachable.
Go small, go simple, go now.
All the LOVE – Tim.